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Tuesday, 21 December 2010

I've gained ten pounds since September.

That shouldn't scare me, but it does. I want to get rid of it but I don't know how.
Happy birthday, Papa.

I really miss you.

<3

Friday, 27 March 2009

Nine Inch Nails/Jane's Addiction Tour

I just posted about this Nine Inch Nails/Jane's Addiction tour for 250 credits. You can earn free credits too!

Tuesday, 10 March 2009

if only my heart could talk

it would say it all.
-refers to latest Pulse- "Daddy called me a whore, isn't he sooo sweet? =3"
Okay, he didn't call me a whore in so few words. More like, "You're never going to be allowed out of the house again unless the tights under your shorts are a lot darker.. If the lights had been brighter this morning, you wouldn't have been allowed to leave.. You're never wearing that out of the house again. Unless you plan to bring home hundreds."
You reach a point in life
You have to decide
Between what you want
And what you need to survive
Yeah, this is just a short post.
I finally talked to Miss Cameron today. It helped so much to be able to talk to an adult about all the shit going on. I'm glad I won the fight with myself and ended up turning around at the end of the hallway. I walked out of class and fought a war in my head all the way down the hall. I finally decided it couldn't hurt to talk, so I turned around and went back.
Lift me up
So I can see
Outside of me
And what could be
A different life
Emi <3

Saturday, 07 March 2009

Currently
Sunsets and Car Crashes
By Spill Canvas
see related
A Comfortable Three Feet Deep

I was lying on the grass on Sunday morning of last week
Indulging in my self-defeat
My mind was thugged all laced and bugged all twisted wrong and beat
Sometimes I wonder why I listened to the songs I listened to when I was younger.
Like Steal My Sunshine by Len. I never realized just how strange that song is. I mean, I loved it when I first heard it. And I didn't know the words, so I just sang what I heard.
Last night, I saw the lyrics for the first time ever, and I was shocked. It was NOTHING like I remember.
So I haven't posted for a couple of days..
Tuesday I was in such bad shape. Wednesday, we had a long Godspell rehearsal. However, we ended it early and most of us went up to Jo's house to chill and bake a cake. It was a lot of fun. ^^ David decided to put big MARSHMALLOWS in the cake mix. And chocolate chips. The cake cooked in the oven for 45 minutes, and was still mostly liquid when we took it out. It was ridiculous. So Jo spooned it into bowls and stuck it in the microwave. After it cooled a little, it turned into cake. And it was yummy. [=
Thursday evening, Mom took me over to Tams' house. I spent the night. We watched School of Rock, and fell asleep through it. APPARENTLY, we were realllllyyyyy tired. Mom was going to pick me up around 8 or 9 last night, but somehow, I was allowed to stay another night. Oo;; I'm really not sure how that works. We watched three movies with Ben - Over The Hedge, Shrek 2, and Finding Nemo. Then, after he went to bed, we watched Family Guy and sang karaoke for a long time. Haha, it was... interesting, fer sure. =D
I was so thrilled to be allowed out of the house, and even MORE thrilled to be allowed to stay out for so long!
Heaven's not a place that you go when you die,
It's that moment in life when you actually feel alive,
So live for the moment.
And take this advice, live by every word,
Love is just a hoax so forget everything that you have heard.
Well, heaven's not a place that you go when you die.
It's that moment in life when you touch your edge and you feel alive.
So live for the moment.
And take this advice, live by every word,
Love's completely real,
So forget anything that you have heard,
And live for the moment now.
Emi <3